Counting My Blessings

Despite everything that has been going on with David's situation, and life in general, in the last seven months, I've been trying to keep the most positive attitude I can. It's hard sometimes, but I figure I have a choice--I can either pull the covers over my head, sulk, be miserable and depressed, have a shitty attitude, and negatively affect others around me. Or I can continue to face life head-on, be optimistic, look at the bright side of whatever I can, and take the support and love I have all around me and channel that into the most positive attitude I can muster.

Being happy and having a good attitude, even while David is away in that shithole, doesn't mean that I'm happy with the situation. But it's the best way I can choose to react to the situation.

"A negative attitude drains, a positive attitude energizes." -Lindsey Rietzsch

How true that is! When I've been at my lowest, and at my darkest, in the past seven months, if I allow myself to let whatever I'm feeling show through my attitude, it has ALWAYS made me feel absolutely worse. But it's the days I show up to work, or I show up to get-togethers, or I show up wherever, and I choose to be positive and happy and engaging, that I actually *FEEL* better overall. Even to the point of allowing myself to blast "Call Me Maybe" in the car and belt out the words with the windows down even if people are looking, it's ENERGIZING.

But one of the most important things I've been doing is counting my blessings. I pray a lot more now. I thank God for what I have and what I am blessed with. And I really sit and think about those blessings. The amazing things in my life, despite the hardships. This past weekend with my Chive family just serves to reinforce all the great things and people I have in my life.

Every single person that embraced me this past weekend is a blessing. Every single person who reiterated their support, kissed David's face-on-a-stick (LOL), offered kind words, and was just THERE for me, is a blessing. Despite this incredible hardship, my life is so full, and a lot of it is because of all these wonderful people that David and I have been so fortunate to meet and be able to call friends. TRUE friends.

And it's because of them, along with our amazing families, and so many customers at work who have grown to feel like family, and all of our other friends and loved ones....that I'm able to make it through day by day waiting for news about David's situation.

Speaking of work, tonight I officially accepted a "promotion" of sorts at my job, which is another blessing I'm so thankful for. I will essentially be the bar manager, which comes with a bit more responsibility and an hourly raise, which is always awesome. I'm thankful for this opportunity and glad that my boss feels I'm worthy of it. So we'll see how this goes!

In any case, I do have a lot to be thankful for, regardless of the shitty things that are going on in my life. But hopefully those shitty things will be over soon and life can return back to normal and I can once again be reunited with my other half. I cannot wait for that day.